The truly painful goodbyes
are the ones that are never said, and never explained.


Hello world,exams are finally over and I'm so relieved.You know something,I hate finding out the truth,the harsh reality.I don't get it.Ignorance is bliss,why do people have to spoil it,I might as well not know anything,and dream about what could have been,than being awaken.I can pretend I don't know anything,but the truth is,it won't be the same dreaming again,will it?I was happy.I hate the truth.I hate it.I detest it.I hate reality.It spoils everyone's dreams.

I mean,have you ever dreamt about something so sweet,so meaningful,that you never want it to end?And once you wake up,its gone,you realise it was just another dream.Don't you just hate that feeling?Don't you just wanna sleep forever,dreaming,though knowing it may never come true?

I have reached rock bottom,it feels so dark,so tiring,so exhausting trying to get back up on to the shore.I fell too deep,when you probably didn't fall at all.You rather watch me drown than to get your hands wet.

But anyway,after talking to Ms Kok yesterday really woke me up.To reality.To realise that all these time,whatever I have been thinking,dreaming about,hoping that it'll come true,was all a dream,was all my own dream,a one sided thing.I told myself,I'll forget you.And today you just had to talk to me.You just had to show concern.Why are you doing this to me?Is playing with me that fun?That you tend to do it over and over again.You make me get my hopes high,crash it down and get it high again.And next?I know what to expect from now on,you'll just crash it right down to my feet again.Its fun isn't it?

Heartbreak after heartbreak,each time I learn to trust again.But from now on,I refuse to give all my trust,my all to one guy,cuz they can never be trusted.Like Ms Kok said,out of 10 guys,only 1 can be trusted.I assure you,you're not that 1.

Thanks,for breaking my heart once again.


So,tell me,what am I to do now?
Cuz I know,I'll never get over you.But I'm just so tired of holding on,to something that is long gone.You're just playing games.Don't you think?


Xo.